I haven’t posted in a considerable amount of time, mostly because I just haven’t had anything to write about. I spent most of 2013 doing a whole lot of nothing, to the point where I really can honestly say I wasted an entire year.
Coming to that realization made me understand that there was something I could write about: don’t stay with the wrong person, even if they need you to stay.
I won’t lie and say I didn’t love him, I truly did and part of me still does. But at the same time, he told me lies about himself, so many to the point where I had no idea who he was until it was too late. I was moved into a home, with a new puppy and a ring on my finger and I really had no idea how I got there.
Life came at me like a tornado: destructive with no real path except a pile of rubbish and ruin. I stopped hanging out with my friends, talking to my family, and honestly doing anything other than work, housework, and the occasional homework.
I believed that if I put my life on the back burner for a while, I’d be making all the difference in his life. All the while thinking, I want this life. This is my life in am helping.
6 months later I have almost nothing to show for it. He won’t let me do anything without running it across him first. He’s still deep in a financial hole with no hope to change it. I gained weight and lost points in my GPA for what? Absolutely nothing.
My point I guess is this: if you feel something isn’t right, even in the slightest, let it go. Life is too hard and too important to be letting wrong decisions dictate your life. I’ve let it go far too long…